Sunday, September 26, 2010

There are days life is just tough...

Today is one of those days. Even though I am here alone in my house, I can feel the sadness of my family across the miles--from Germany to Ohio to Missouri to Arkansas and here in Kentucky.

Today is my nephew's birthday. Today, he would have been 20 years old but some turns of life took him from this life back in March. Rhett was funny and sly and quick as a cricket when he was young. He could look at you with those big puppy-dog eyes and your heart would melt. He would sit and listen to adults for hours, and give you every single bit of his attention. He could hug you and you'd feel it to your toes. He could make you laugh like you had not a single care in the world.

I don't see my nieces and nephews and my family often enough. We are all scattered. But the love and support for all of our family pours out in a lot of ways. Today, as I passed through Rhett's Facebook page, and read all of the happy birthday wishes from his friends and family, it still feels like he is with us.

Interesting that a Facebook page still lives, long after someone has passed, but I'm glad it's there for all of us to talk to him. I don't think anyone would have planned it that way, but it's kind of nice to feel like there is still that small connection.

He is here, I'm sure. He's watching over us and helping us through our daily grind. I like to think of him sitting up in Heaven shooting the breeze with my Grandpa. I can see them perfectly clear. And it's a very nice sight to see, if only in my head.

Still, we mourn. It's too new still, even though it's been a few months.

Rhett would say to me sometimes that he wanted to be a writer. Who knows where his life might have taken him had Diabetes not interfered. Maybe while he's spinning yarns with Grandpa, he'll take a few minutes to write his stories down.

Love you, Rhett. Happy Birthday, Bud. I sure do miss you.


Margaret said...

*hugs* I'm so sorry for your loss. It's unspeakably difficult to lose someone so young. I have a niece who is living with Cystic Fibrosis. I know that every day that we have with her is a blessing. I'm glad that you have such warm memories of Rhett to keep him alive in your heart. I'll be thinking of you and your family.

Ruth J. Hartman said...

You are in my prayers. I know what it's like to have your family scattered all over and not get to see them very often. And then when you lose someone, it makes it even harder.


Maddie James said...

Ruth and Margaret, thanks so much for stopping by. Your friendship is important to me, and so are your words. Thank you.

Renee Vincent said...

You know the anniversary of both his death and his birthday will always have a special place in your life. Those dates will be forever engraved in your heart and soul. And his birthday is especially the day to celebrate his life! Never forget the great memories you have been blessed with!

My heart bleeds for you, Maddie. But know you have great friends and family who will be there when you need them.

Here's to Rhett! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!